1 month young!

9-6-15 Greg is 1 month young!

As I sit outside on our front porch trying to come up with what to write, I am stumped. I'll write as it comes to me. 

#1 I may have said this in a previous post, but I want to reiterate the fact how I think birth is incredible and unbelievable--how two cells form to make a little human! I still have a hard time believing it is all real. 

#2 I feel sorry for people when they look at me after they ask me how things really are going as they say "isn't it just the best thing ever." This whole process is not peachy for everyone, and it sure has been a really hard journey for me to accept and surrender to. To be honest, I'm not sure I'm completely all there yet. But I also hear lots of other people say you never will be because it's lifelong! I've had to do so much spiritual work to get to this point--most people don't know about this kind of stuff because our society is afraid of delving deep into each other's stories. Those who know me well know that I do not sugarcoat stories to make life look good when it may not be. I'm a realist and tell it how it is so people can learn from it and/or support me. 

... I hear him crying inside, I'll be back...

#3 What I love about Greg: he is a true product of God's will, his dad!, his smell, when I touch him, when he looks at me, when he responds to my touch/smell/voice, his smile, the fact that he likes to look into our animals' eyes, his love for music...

#4 I'm a true believer of self-care. I learned this from all the circumstances we been involved in since 2009 when Travis got laid off from Trane company after 15 years of working there. We must tend to ourselves to be able to tend to others. I know everyone has heard this over and over again but only a few truly live it--I am one of them now. I made time to sit outside by myself, file my fingernails, paint my toenails, and shave my legs on Friday. I went to yoga Saturday for the first time in 5 1/2 weeks, and it was fantastic!!!

That's enough for now!!